12.6.11

The People in This Room... And in That Room.

I have been over a lot of learning hurdles (aka mistakes) regarding relationships, whether it be with an acquaintance, friend, partner, stranger, roommate, etc., and these were some of the best and hardest hurdles I've had to get over. (NOTE: I plan on being a little more open with my writing and unfortunately for me, it means doing something I never do - open up about my thoughts, feelings and ideas. This will take time.)

We have all been able to meet someone in our life who has moved, touched, inspired, enraged, and even hurt us. This is the beauty of life and here are some of the people I've been able to meet:

1) A stranger on an airplane (when I was 14) who I don't remember a thing of what we spoke of, but we talked. I have social anxiety and I've let it affect me for many years. This was my first plane ride and I talked with this man for the duration of the plane ride partly because I was excited to be on a plane, I didn't know how to kindly stop talking (and listen to my mp3 player) and thirdly, I was genuinely interested in this man who was flying back to see his family.

2) A person who I feel lucky to have called my best friend who I miss every day. Adele. Her thirst and fierce way of living was something I looked up to and still do. Y'know when you hear someone say, 'I think of them everyday'? I never believed or thought it was true. I was proved wrong - both a blessing and a curse - Adele crosses my mind at least once a day. I'm thankful I can still remember how I looked up to her and truly enjoyed being friends with her. Adele was popular, caring, open, loud, honest, blunt, wonderful, daring and someone who was always dreaming and going after that dream. I am thankful to have met her and shared moments with her while she walked this earth. When you meet someone who is fierce, honest and caring - take note of how they carry themselves, especially if you want to be fierce and be real.

3) A person who I don't care for, actually two people. I will not delve into the details of why I don't care for them, but they both taught me something. I liked them both and was attracted to their big personalities, but quickly realized they were not the people for me. I successfully cut one out of my life with no major ramifications (besides a text stating why I was such a bitch) and the other, not so successful, but they are not in my life and that is what I am thankful for. You will meet someone who is not the person for you and that is something to be valued. It's OK to reflect on that encounter (rather than simply rid of them and try to eliminate any thoughts of them) because it teaches you about who you don't want to be and who you want in your life. These two individuals inspired me to be more open with my thoughts and feelings, but not with them and for that, I have respect for them.


4) A person who I [had previously] never met, but felt like I could connect with. Her name is Kelly Cutrone and I've looked up to since I watched her on MTV (The Hills) several years ago. For those of you who have heard or even seen her do her thing, you'll either like her or you won't. She is inspiring, loving and most importantly, real. She came to Toronto for a book signing, for her second book Normal Gets You Nowhere and I made it my goal to meet her. My mom who recently had hip surgery and is slowly beginning to walk made the trek down to the Eaton Centre and waited for me in line for me (by the way, my mom is one of the most amazing persons in life who you should meet). My mom became an admirer of Kelly after reading a few passages from her first book, If You Have to Cry, Go Outside. I ran to the Eaton Centre after work, and was so anxious to listen to Kelly's words of wisdom. When she arrived and barely made it through her opening, I began to tear up and then cry. Luckily, I was front row so no one could see me. I managed to calm myself down, but began to cry.... AGAIN. She is so inspiring and if you have the chance to see someone who is so powerful and real in person, you too I believe, will feel and act the same. When it came time to finally meet her, I could barely talk, so much that my mom had to speak with her. Kelly is Kelly and I appreciate the fact that she can be who she is - in all facets of her life and be so daring.

So that's it, some of the people who I have met - who have you met?

The perfect song to listen to while writing this blog is That's Life by Frank Sinatra.

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